Crying...yet again!

I am laying in bed crying again about the abuse inflicted on K. I try so hard not to think about it, not to remember. It pops into my head daily. It pops into my head whenever I hear his name, speak his name, see his picture, read/hear news articles about other molesters... I want to forget it happened but I can't. I can't not only because it is impossible but also because SHE will never forget and if I forget, that could send the wrong message to her for remembering. 

Usually I do cry though. I have managed to stop crying whenever I think about it. Not tonight though. Tonight I weep for him. What happened to make him do this? Why did he choose her?! Will he stop? And of course I weep for her. Why did she have this happen? Will she end up the way some molested girls end up? I weep for S. S misses him dearly. He wonders if will ever see him again. Wonders if he misses & loves S at all. Lastly I weep for Hubby & myself. For our family that has forever changed. For what was and what should have been. 

I am so tired of crying!!!!